So i just realized after going over my spending that in the past 4 months, i have spent $811.25 on food purchases a lot! so this stops today, I will be leaving my debit cards, and credit cards at home from now on, because that is ridiculous, how could i be so delusional.. i mean i have been wondering why i am not loosing as much weight, the proof is in the amount that i have spent!! i am literally feeling sick right now, i mean was that food worth that much, i mean 811.25 thats a trip to anywhere in the US for a week, or 4 designer hand bags, or 811.25 in my savings account, well i can tell you i don't have any of those things, all i have is no weight loss.. i am lucky that i am not back up weighin gin the 280s, i don't know how i still only weigh 242, i mean that is ridiculous..
So i am coming up on my 10 month anniversary of when i started, and i'm only down 47 lbs in 10 months, that is ridiculous, i should be able to drop 12 lbs a month, which mean i would be able to be down 120 lbs, but now i'm not even down 1/2 of that, well that stops now, by the time my year anniversary comes around i will be down 80 lbs that is 33 lbs in 2 months, i can do that, especially if i stop eating crap food, which will be ending tonight!! i will start eating breakfest at home, and eating lunch and dinner from things we have at our home plus snacks!! no more eating out!! I am feeling sick right now, because I think that me eating out shows how much i don't really love myself.. because if i loved myself i would say no to the drive thru and take out, i expect so much in my life, yet don't put my best foot forward.. Okay so one a different note, when did the biggest loser start making me cry every week!! everytime i watch this show, i end up bawling!!!
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