Yesterday I had an Ah..Ha...moment. Something in my brain just FINALLY clicked. As you all know...I am on a journey of setting myself free of the scale and of my Body Bugg. I dont HATE these two things. They actually have a place in my heart. They were a HUGE part of my success. I lost 40 pounds with these two little guys by my side. However, now they have become just plain annoying. To tell you the truth....Im getting tired of them and I need to seperate myself from them. I dont want to spend t…
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Added by Maren on December 10, 2009 at 5:00pm —
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I have to be honest here. I havent been perfect in my "no weighing in" goal but Im getting stronger. Since my commitment of 25 days of healthy eating and no scale weighing....I have weighed in one time. It was December 3rd and I hopped on when I knew I shouldnt have. I just HAD to know where I was. I feel like crap about it and wish I didnt. It is REALLY hard not to. Im still not quite sure how I am to stay on track and be accountable without weighing in. I would like to find a healthy balance.…
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Added by Maren on December 9, 2009 at 10:30am —
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I found it funny that Roni posted about resolutions. Just this morning in my spin class I was thinking the exact same thing. Just a few days ago I commited to 25 days of healthy eating and no scale weighing. I wasnt going to wait until January. My spin instructor also reminded me about all the New Years chaos that will be coming to the gym. She told all of us "regulars" to start coming early in January so we can get a bike. This made me feel good. I am considered a "regular'. That is a great fee…
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Added by Maren on December 1, 2009 at 9:45am —
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Today I decided to commit to 25 days of healthy, clean eating. Ive been doing Ok...but not my best. I enjoyed a few too many days around Thanksgiving of eating whatever (in moderation) and its time to get back on track. I havent weighed myself for a week or so and without knowing my weight, I know Ive got to change those bad habits now before they get the best of me. My therapist encouraged me to not weigh myself for while. She told me that she has noticed that when I have a bad week, it is usua…
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Added by Maren on November 30, 2009 at 5:00pm —
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Thanksgiving was wonderful! I had a great time with family and most of all....I didnt go TOO out of control. I did eat more than usual and I ate things I normally dont but I didnt binge so Im happy. I dont feel all that well though. I can tell a huge difference when I eat more fattening, sugary foods. I do have to say that I AM proud of myself. Usually I am mean to myself after I eat something so called "bad" and I dont forgive myself or let it go. Today I am turning off the negative voice and a…
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Added by Maren on November 27, 2009 at 12:00pm —
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Ive got to keep this short and sweet because I am off to my parents house for Thanksgiving. I have been meaning to write this for sometime now, but I just havent been in the blogging mood. I am usually on here everyday reading but just not wanting to share. Not that things are bad, I just dont want to put forth the time and effort it takes to blog my mind. I guess I have just been mentally lazy!
Anyways, this month it occured to me that I hit my goal weight last November. Really? Wow! That was…
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Added by Maren on November 25, 2009 at 6:25pm —
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This week since reading the book Intuitive Eating..... Ive gone from feeling really out of control mentally ....to a bit more stable and have finally found some peace of mind. My eating has been fine...my thinking has been CRAZY all over the place! I finished the book lastnight minus the nutrition section. They said to not read that part until youve completely understood all the other principles of the book. Im not quite there yet, so I didnt continue. I have an appt with my councelor today and…
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Added by Maren on October 15, 2009 at 11:30am —
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This is the first principle of Intuitive Eating that Ive got to learn.
"Throw out the diet books and magazine articles that offer you the false hope of losing weight quickly, easily, and permanently. Get angry at the lies that have led you to feel as if you were a failure every time a new diet stopped working and you gained back all of the weight. If you allow even one small hope to linger that a new and better diet might be lurking around the corner, it will prevent you from being free to disc…
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Added by Maren on October 12, 2009 at 12:30pm —
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Seriously, I feel like a kid that lost her blanket! Yesterday, I put away the scale AND I took off my Bodybugg.....my security blankets have been taken away and Im feeling a bit scared. At first, I felt
liberated..... but then lastnight, it hit me. The realization of it all came pouring down and I shed a few tears. I know the road ahead will be a hard one. BUT...I know this is what I want and Im willi…
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Added by Maren on October 8, 2009 at 9:02am —
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Today I had my first appointment with the councelor. It was a great session. I really liked her and all that she said. I gave her my life story....and DANG.... did it have some serious ups and downs!......but it felt good to talk about them. I tried to not only listen to her, but I tried to listen to myself. I tried to hear myself speak and understand myself. I left feeling great and completely liberated! I cant wait for my next session! I know Im doing the right thing and that I need help. I kn…
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Added by Maren on October 7, 2009 at 3:39pm —
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So here I am at the start of week three. Im feeling good. No binges for two weeks and Im still doing p90x. Its kickin my butt, but I havent quit! I ran 4 miles this morning, did abs, back and chest. I worked out for about 2 hrs! Crazy! I am definilty eating more and the scale is up. I am eating like the program says to, so we will see if I need to adjust it. I was dang tired last week so I bumped up my calories like the program suggests. I have to ignore the scale and be Ok with it. I know Im ea…
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Added by Maren on October 5, 2009 at 12:30pm —
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Today I hit one week back on plan after my big binge. I feel so good. Way better than I did last Monday when I started back on. It was hard. I felt like crap. I felt like I poisoned myself. My body ached. I was so tired and the disapointment was severe. I knew I had to start over and forgive myself. I knew I couldnt continue on in that vicious cycle because I was feeling horrible. I knew that is wasnt what I wanted and I needed to find the strength I knew I had and stop the cycle before the cycl…
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Added by Maren on September 28, 2009 at 9:49am —
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Day three is coming to an end and I feel great! I have no desire to eat like crap so I feel wonderful! I think I may have learned a lesson...again. Im eating clean and eating a little more calories....... which is good because I started p90x. It kicked my butt...well my chest and back.... lastnight and tonight Im doing it again. I need to definitly get these few pounds off Im sure Ive gained through my binge. Anyways.....I am learning a lot about myself and Im trying to prove to myself that I ca…
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Added by Maren on September 23, 2009 at 9:24pm —
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Just have to quickly say that yesterday went perfectly! Its amazing what you can do when you set your mind to something! I stayed on plan and I feel great! It isnt worth eating like crap because it makes you feel like crap. I just have to remember this when I am tempted to eat other wise. Have a great day everyone!
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Added by Maren on September 22, 2009 at 9:23am —
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Today I recommit. I know I have it in me and I have to do this! Ever since Labor Day weekend, I have been struggling. I have had about 4 days here and there that I have binged. I am so disapointed in myself because I havent binged in almost 2 years. The first was Labor Day and then I got right back on the next day. The second was in California...it wasnt bad but I went off plan and then this last weekend was two days. It was scary! I found myself eating everything sweet that I could get my hands…
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Added by Maren on September 21, 2009 at 11:00am —
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This question has been on my mind lately ever since I spoke with my Mom last night on the phone. To make a long story short....my Mom was just diagnosed with having prediabetes and is finally trying to lose weight. She has really struggled in the past and has yo yo dieted all her life. Anyways....she proceeded to tell me about her recent weight loss and how great she was doing. I couldnt be any happier! I am so proud of her for making some changes and taking care of yourself. She told me that sh…
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Added by Maren on September 3, 2009 at 3:30pm —
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I know I havent posted in a while. Things have been busy around here and things have been REALLY good. As you know...... I had a hard month because of my back. I ended up getting the cortizone shots which helped a lot. I still havent exercised because I want to give my back some time to heal. I really miss it but am really afraid of injury so Im staying away for a while. During these trying times.....I didnt get on the scale for about 3 weeks because I was terrified of what it would say. My eati…
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Added by Maren on August 21, 2009 at 3:38pm —
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I am NOT perfect and I need to just get over it! Ok...so I am struggling and its been a while since Ive been here. I guess I see myself a little out of control and I hate it. Wouldnt it been nice if we could just stay in that happy place once we find it. I felt like I found it and that I was doing so good. Nothing tempted me and I WANTED to eat healthy. I logged all my food and worked out 6 times a week. I eat clean most of the time and it makes me feel good. Things were feeling great and then B…
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Added by Maren on August 7, 2009 at 9:59pm —
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So Im trying to stay positive these days. My back has been bugging me for over a month now. It usually goes away after a week or so, but this time it hasnt. Last Thursday, I sneezed really hard and it completely threw out my back. Luckily, I had an appt already scheduled to get an MRI that day. I have struggled with my back since I was 18. That makes it about 15 years now. I have degenerative disc disease and sciatica. It runs in my family and it is something I will always have to deal with. It…
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Added by Maren on July 28, 2009 at 9:30am —
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Allright....its on! Im going to go pick up P90X tonight. I have been wanting to buy it for a long time and Im getting a really good deal on it so Im not waiting any longer. I feel like I need to go onto the next level and pick things up a bit. Sometimes I also find that I dont have a ton of time to be at the gym doing weights...so this is something I can do at home while my kids nap. I will take before and after shots and see what kind of results I can get. Im not in it to lose weight..more to j…
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Added by Maren on July 22, 2009 at 5:30pm —
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