I exercised for the first time since starting to lose weight. What a year it has been. In the past year, I've...
- Lost 65 pounds and kept 50 of them off for almost 5 months
- Ran three 5k's (and won my age group for one of them), a 10k, and a half marathon
- Learned never to give up and always push myself beyond what I think I can do
I am able to recognize that all of that is so amazing.
But I also have to be honest. Throughout the time that I lost my weight, I didn't learn or change as much…
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Added by Rachel on December 12, 2009 at 3:03pm —
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Ugh, I don't want to write... this is hard. But we don't have internet at home anymore and so I need to blog when I have the chance. This week has been HORRIBLE. Both in terms of eating and exercise. For some reason I binged Sunday night, which is very unusual for me to do it so early in the week... then I did Monday night too. Tuesday was an awesome day... but Wednesday I woke up really sick. So that put a damper on my exercise and I haven't really exercised since then... so much for my 7 week…
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Added by Rachel on December 5, 2009 at 12:21pm —
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Wow, the Biggest Loser was really emotional for me tonight... I cried a lot. I think it's because I relate so much to what the contestants have gone through with losing a huge amount of weight.
I had a huge epiphany near the end. For some reason it just hit me- I hate thinking about myself as someone priorly overweight and I always avoid thinking about it. I just feel like being smaller is the way I've always been- sometimes I think I trick myself into thinking that. I think because I was only…
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Added by Rachel on December 1, 2009 at 11:07pm —
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I am fighting a funk right now. Thanksgiving actually went fine… I ran 30 minutes in the morning, fought the urge to get a donut (and won), and ate okay all day. Sure, I indulged a little too much but nothing major at all. Then Friday I had a brunch with my high school friends, and I indulged a little but again, nothing major. Then the rest of the day went fine until dinner. We went out to Qdoba and instead of getting what I usually get I got the nachos and ate the whole thing. Then that kind of…
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Added by Rachel on November 28, 2009 at 2:43pm —
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This has been a HUGE week for me, both physically and emotionally. I'll start with the physical.
Last week I weighed in at 138.4... today I weighed in at 134.6. 3.8 pounds lost... whoo hoo! I had the best week with eating that I've had in a looooooooong time. The only time I went over points was Thursday night I had a binge of 4 cookies. But that was IT. No binge Friday, no binge Saturday. Incredible. The urge has gone down a lot, but it's still there. I finally actually WANT to not binge, I wa…
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Added by Rachel on November 22, 2009 at 1:32pm —
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This has been a HUGE week for me, both physically and emotionally. I'll start with the physical.
Last week I weighed in at 138.4... today I weighed in at 134.6. 3.8 pounds lost... whoo hoo! I had the best week with eating that I've had in a looooooooong time. The only time I went over points was Thursday night I had a binge of 4 cookies. But that was IT. No binge Friday, no binge Saturday. Incredible. The urge has gone down a lot, but it's still there. I finally actually WANT to not binge, I wa…
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Added by Rachel on November 22, 2009 at 1:32pm —
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- The challenge is going awesome, and I am exercising every day
- I had a colossal binge last night
- ... but that was my only binge the whole week
- Last Sunday I was 138.2... today I was 138.4
- I didn't weigh myself once during the week
- TOM FINALLY came after 7 months of being gone... and I felt like celebrating!!! I feel normal again
- I feel like my hormones and emotions are balancing out again after a long time of being out of wack
- I'm ready to have another healthy week
- I'm ready to…
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Added by Rachel on November 15, 2009 at 1:15pm —
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- The challenge is going awesome, and I am exercising every day
- I had a colossal binge last night
- ... but that was my only binge the whole week
- Last Sunday I was 138.2... today I was 138.4
- I didn't weigh myself once during the week
- TOM FINALLY came after 7 months of being gone... and I felt like celebrating!!! I feel normal again
- I feel like my hormones and emotions are balancing out again after a long time of being out of wack
- I'm ready to have another healthy week
- I'm ready to…
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Added by Rachel on November 15, 2009 at 1:15pm —
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I wrote this yesterday but never got a chance to post it:
I told myself to write if I felt even an inkling of a bad mood impending... because a lot of times that leads to a binge for me. I'm not in a full on bad mood but I can tell that today I'm not quite as happy as normal. And that's completely normal for me. Often times the first binge of the week occurs on a Thursday.
There's only a couple reasons I can think of for this. One, the weekends used to be made special by eating good…
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Added by Rachel on November 13, 2009 at 1:30pm —
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I wrote this yesterday but never got a chance to post it:
I told myself to write if I felt even an inkling of a bad mood impending... because a lot of times that leads to a binge for me. I'm not in a full on bad mood but I can tell that today I'm not quite as happy as normal. And that's completely normal for me. Often times the first binge of the week occurs on a Thursday.
There's only a couple reasons I can think of for this. One, the weekends used to be made special by eating good…
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Added by Rachel on November 13, 2009 at 1:30pm —
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I definitely write a lot less when things are going well. I have kept up on the challenge (Monday I walked 30 minutes on the treadmill, Tuesday I ran 4 miles, and today I did NMTZ) and I love being so active again. I'm just loving it! And I know it's helping decrease my stress and increase my mood, which is helping me eat well.
I haven't wanted to even think or write about this, but in the back of my mind I'm afraid about facing my first temptation to binge this week. I keep hoping for a miracl…
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Added by Rachel on November 11, 2009 at 2:09pm —
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I definitely write a lot less when things are going well. I have kept up on the challenge (Monday I walked 30 minutes on the treadmill, Tuesday I ran 4 miles, and today I did NMTZ) and I love being so active again. I'm just loving it! And I know it's helping decrease my stress and increase my mood, which is helping me eat well.
I haven't wanted to even think or write about this, but in the back of my mind I'm afraid about facing my first temptation to binge this week. I keep hoping for a miracl…
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Added by Rachel on November 11, 2009 at 2:09pm —
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I can not tell you how much better I feel now that I'm exercising regularly again. It is a 180 degree change! I have exercised every day since Wednesday and every day I have felt better and better. Honestly, for the past few weeks it's been so hard to get out of bed in the mornings and I have just felt bad when I woke up. Since I started exercising more again, it's been easier to get up and I am having way more energy in the mornings!
I bet the fact that I haven't been exercising very much sinc…
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Added by Rachel on November 8, 2009 at 10:09am —
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Jackie gave me the idea yesterday of setting a goal for myself to work towards. I do feel very aimless now that I'm not training for a half marathon. At first I was thinking of big things... i.e. marathon, triathalon... but now isn't really the best time because it's winter. And although I know the goal doesn't have to be something physical, that is what I love doing.
So today I finally got it! And it's not even something big- it's a small day to day thing. Christmas is 7 weeks from today. So I…
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Added by Rachel on November 6, 2009 at 11:01am —
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I've never been more frustrated in my LIFE! I can't seem to go more than a few days without binging. I binged last night. I got through Sun, Mon, and Tues on track but then it happened last night. I was so tempted on Tuesday but somehow I fought my way through it even though it was SO hard. Then last night I just caved.
I tried so hard to think about what I was feeling and face my feelings in order to not binge... but I just couldn't come up with anything. I wasn't mad, sad, anxious, nothing. I…
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Added by Rachel on November 5, 2009 at 10:40pm —
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Sometimes I think about posting but decide not to because lately I've been so up and down and all over the place. I keep changing my mind about things and I'm afraid it will drive people nuts. But if it helps me work through things then I guess that's reason to keep blogging!
I haven't posted in the past couple days because I'm afraid I'll jinx it. I know that's ridiculous... but basically Sunday I woke up knowing I had to change my eating around. I binged or ate horrible every day last week!!…
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Added by Rachel on November 3, 2009 at 3:06pm —
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When did I forget that it's about
health and
treating my body right... not about being skinny, successful, or in control? I think I have lost sight of that somewhere along the way... actually I know I have. I just watched the latest Ask Roni post and a lot of it hit home for me... I have been focusing on all the wrong things lately.
It's not wrong for me to want to lose weight right now. It's not wrong to want to stop binging, or to get my eating under control. None of that is bad…
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Added by Rachel on October 30, 2009 at 2:30pm —
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I weighed myself today for the first time in weeks. 137.4. 12-15 pounds up from where I would like to be. Yes, that is a hard fact to swallow... BUT 12 pounds is a lot better than 20... or 30.. or 100. And that's a simple fact.
I'm sure you guys are probably sick of me going back and forth on intuitive eating/weight watchers. And I'm sorry. I feel so stupid. That's why I've pretty much stopped blogging. Which I know is dumb, because I seem to have forgotten this blog is for ME. That's why I sta…
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Added by Rachel on October 30, 2009 at 8:16am —
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I hardly even know what to write today. But I need to even though it’s not easy. Things haven’t been going so great since my last post. I am very, very stressed right now. Probably the most stressed I’ve ever been. The major things stressing me out are school, finances, housework, losing weight, finding time to exercise and spend time with God, my husband, and my daughter… oh and my husband wants to move. Nothing is going well and I feel like I’m about to crack.
The “intuitive eating” (I put it…
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Added by Rachel on October 27, 2009 at 7:39am —
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I had my half marathon on Sunday and it went GREAT! It was definitely hard… but that’s because I pushed myself. I’m proud of my time of 2 hours 35 seconds. It felt so amazing to push myself harder than I ever have before. Well… it felt good after, not so much during. :) I got through it pretty much pain free with the exception of a dull pain in my side/back that I’ve never had before. It was manageable though and it went away after a while.
I know when some people do races they recap it mile by…
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Added by Rachel on October 23, 2009 at 3:29pm —
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