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Rachel
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  • Michigan
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Rachel left a comment for Maren
19 hours ago
Congrats! Maintaining for one year is absolutely incredible. SO much of what you said in this post rang true for me!! It really is a fight every day, isn't it?! It will get easier though, you're right. I'm so happy you posted. Happy Thanksgiving!
19 hours ago
Maren left a comment for Rachel
23 hours ago
I wish I could offer some great words of wisdom, but I'm not that gifted. Just take comfort in knowing God IS watching and that I'm praying for you guys!
on Sunday
You are making great strides, and that is something to be thankful for. I have always said everything works out in the end, however long it takes, but things usually work out. Our job is to be patient...easier said then done. At times like these w...
on Sunday
You sound like you're doing awesome! I love 30 day shred!! Can't wait to see the changes you make :)
on Sunday
I understand this post on so many levels - the depression your husband faces, the closeness to God....know that everything works out in the end. Depression is a TOUGH battle so kudos to you for standing by his side. I will keep you in my prayers.
on Sunday
Look at that smile! What a handsome little guy!
on Sunday

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About Me:
I am a wife, mother, and full time student. I have now lost over 100 pounds. This is my journey!

My Weight Stats:

Height: 5'4"
Starting weight: 239.3
Current weight: 134.6

Weekly Weigh-in Results:

8/11- 236
8/18- 230 (-6)
8/25- 225 (-5)
9/1- 219 (-6)
9/8- 217.5 (-1.5)
9/15- 215.5 (-2)
9/22- 212 (-3.5)
9/29- 210.5 (-1.5)
10/6- 207.5 (-3)
10/13- 207 (-.5)
10/20- 202 (-5)
10/27- 200 (-2)
11/3- 198 (-2)
11/10- 196 (-2)
11/17- 193 (-3)
11/24- 190.5 (-2.5)
12/1- 188 (-2.5)
12/8- 187 (-1)
12/15- 185.5 (-1.5)
12/22- 181 (-4.5)
12/29- 180.5 (-.5)
1/5- 179/182.3 (got a new scale that's 3.3 pounds heavier) (-1.5)
1/12- 178.9 (-3.4)
1/19- 177.4 (-1.5)
1/26- 175.8 (-1.6)
2/2- 175.8 (-0)
2/9- 172.5 (-3.3)
2/16- 168.2 (-4.3)
2/23- 165.6 (-2.6)
3/2- 165.8 (+.2)
3/9- 162.6 (-3.2 )
3/16- 160.9 (-1.7)
3/23- 159.3 (-1.6)
3/30- 156.6 (-2.7)
4/6- 154.4 (-2.2)
4/13- 150.7 (-3.7)
4/20- 148 (-2.7)
4/27- 146.4 (-1.6)
5/4- 144.5 (-1.9)
5/11- 141.4 (-3.1)
5/18- 139.8 (-1.6)
5/25- 137.9 (-1.9)
6/1- 134.2 (-3.7)
6/8- 132.9 (-1.3)
6/15- 131.0 (-1.9)
6/22- 129.7 (-1.3)
6/29- 128.4 (-1.3)
7/6- 124.9 (-3.5)
***started maintenance
7/13- 122.7 (-2.2)
7/20- 121.3 (-1.4)
7/26- 119.9 (-1.4)
8/2- 120.2 (+.2)
8/17- 127.2 (+7)
8/24- 121.7 (-5.5)
10/30- 137.4
11/15- 138.4
11/22- 134.6
Plan of Choice:
Weight Watchers
Website/Blog:
http://findingthemiddleground.blogspot.com
Workout Philosophy:
I'm a Running Fanatic, I love lifting weights

My Story

I've always gone up and down in weight my whole life and never seemed to be able to maintain any weight. But in August of 2008 I hit my all time highest weight of 239 pounds. I tried weight watchers for the third time (this time just at home) and had success with it. I lost the first 50 without exercise and then began exercising with Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred in December. I'm so glad I did because I'll always say that DVD changed not only my body but my life. I will never again be sedentary. I began running (using the couch to 5K program) in March and I also began doing No More Trouble Zones, also by Jillian Michaels. I fell in love with running, and have done a couple 5k's and a 10k. I've started biking more lately and also enjoy that... I would love to branch out and find new forms of exercise I haven't tried! Exercise is the biggest stress reliever for me and I feel like I don't function well without it now.

I recently arrived in maintenance-land, and while I miss the excitement of looking forward to a goal, I love just loving where I'm at. And I'm constantly trying to improve myself, this journey is never over.

I love blog to lose. The support everyone has given me is unlike anything else, and I've said many times I don't think I would be where I'm at without everyone here.

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Rachel

A week full of hope

This has been a HUGE week for me, both physically and emotionally. I'll start with the physical.

Last week I weighed in at 138.4... today I weighed in at 134.6. 3.8 pounds lost... whoo hoo! I had the best week with eating that I've had in a looooooooong time. The only time I went over points was Thursday night I had a binge of 4 cookies. But that was IT. No binge Friday, no binge Saturday. Incredible. The urge has gone down a lot, but it's still there. I finally actually WANT to not binge, I wa… Continue

Posted on November 22, 2009 at 1:32pm — 3 Comments

Rachel

A week full of hope

This has been a HUGE week for me, both physically and emotionally. I'll start with the physical.

Last week I weighed in at 138.4... today I weighed in at 134.6. 3.8 pounds lost... whoo hoo! I had the best week with eating that I've had in a looooooooong time. The only time I went over points was Thursday night I had a binge of 4 cookies. But that was IT. No binge Friday, no binge Saturday. Incredible. The urge has gone down a lot, but it's still there. I finally actually WANT to not binge, I wa… Continue

Posted on November 22, 2009 at 1:32pm —

Rachel

My Week in Bullet Points

- The challenge is going awesome, and I am exercising every day
- I had a colossal binge last night
- ... but that was my only binge the whole week
- Last Sunday I was 138.2... today I was 138.4
- I didn't weigh myself once during the week
- TOM FINALLY came after 7 months of being gone... and I felt like celebrating!!! I feel normal again
- I feel like my hormones and emotions are balancing out again after a long time of being out of wack
- I'm ready to have another healthy week
- I'm ready to… Continue

Posted on November 15, 2009 at 1:15pm — 5 Comments

Rachel

My Week in Bullet Points

- The challenge is going awesome, and I am exercising every day
- I had a colossal binge last night
- ... but that was my only binge the whole week
- Last Sunday I was 138.2... today I was 138.4
- I didn't weigh myself once during the week
- TOM FINALLY came after 7 months of being gone... and I felt like celebrating!!! I feel normal again
- I feel like my hormones and emotions are balancing out again after a long time of being out of wack
- I'm ready to have another healthy week
- I'm ready to… Continue

Posted on November 15, 2009 at 1:15pm —

Rachel

Still on Track!

I wrote this yesterday but never got a chance to post it:

I told myself to write if I felt even an inkling of a bad mood impending... because a lot of times that leads to a binge for me. I'm not in a full on bad mood but I can tell that today I'm not quite as happy as normal. And that's completely normal for me. Often times the first binge of the week occurs on a Thursday.

There's only a couple reasons I can think of for this. One, the weekends used to be made special by eating goodContinue

Posted on November 13, 2009 at 1:30pm — 3 Comments

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At 5:50pm on November 25, 2009, Maren said…
Hey Rachel! Things are good. Therapy is going well. I seem to have a good week and then a bad week. I havent binged but I am really weight obsessed. If the scale moves up I freak. Im trying to not weigh myself and Im trying to relaize that Im healthier around 130-135. My period came back and I have realized that when I am active and when I run a lot, I just cant stay around 125. This is hard for me to realize and come to terms with but Ive got to do it. I need to be healthy both physically and mentally. Its a hard road but Im moving forward. How are you?
At 12:37pm on November 17, 2009, Hannah said…
Thanks for the video tips, Rachel! I actually have those that you listed. I've been doing 30DS, but not consistently. I've only done Level 1. How would you recommend doing it? I've done NMTZ once. I've gotta get back into an exercise routine. My whole body and mind feel sooo crappy!
At 8:16pm on November 15, 2009, Angela said…
Hey Rachel - thanks for checking in on me. I've been on a BTL hiatus because I've been so busy in other areas of my life. But I'm still on the weight loss journey. I'll post an update to fill you in. I'm glad to see that you are still blogging. This is really a struggle and I appreciate you sharing your feelings/struggles/successes with all of us. :)
At 2:38pm on November 13, 2009, AnnaBanana said…
Rachel, i don't often comment but i follow your blog and share your struggles. i subscribe to an emial newsletter by Geneen Roth and the recent message about bingeing made me think of you. so i am sharing the article (i used cut and paste)
sorry it is so long! go to geneenroth.com for very insightful and life-changing info!


About Binges


The other week, when I was at a gas station filling the tank, washing my windshield, checking the oil, and adding little whooshes of air to my tires, I noticed a woman in the car next to me eating a piece of pizza. And then another. And then the entire pizza. After that, she ate a box of donuts and a carton of ice cream. I wanted to walk over to her and say, "Oh, honey, tell me what's going on...." Then I remembered that when I was bingeing, I would have run down anything that stood between me and food. So I decided to preserve my life and not interrupt the Binge Trance. Still, I couldn't get her out of my mind for the rest of the day.

Bingeing used to thrill me. From the moment I decided to binge, to the hunting and gathering of the food that would be its centerpiece, through the eating (um, inhaling) of those foods, I would be heart-pounding, eyes-gleaming enthralled.

A binge had the power to stop time. To stop everything that was disturbing me: the worries, the nitty-gritty tasks I was avoiding, the arguments I was having with a friend or family member. Bingeing was a way to sidestep my life and enter a world in which nothing existed but me and food. It was, as I've called it in my books, "a plunge into oblivion."

The hardest part of bingeing was, natch, when I reached the end. The last bite would be taken, and I'd be surrounded by the evidence of my romp (which was really more like a rampage) through the grocery store: empty cans, crumpled cellophane packages, torn cardboard boxes. I'd end a binge feeling unbearably full — and incredibly empty. Only now I had added another layer of pain to my list of pre-binge worries: my seemingly out-of-control relationship to food and my ever-increasing body size. The truth was that rather than take any of my pain away, I'd just doubled it by bingeing, and the resulting desperation was almost unbearable.

Having paid close attention to my many binges, and having been asked countless binge questions over the years, I think I've gleaned some wisdom that's worth sharing.

First, we all need to have built-in plunges into oblivion. We need to give ourselves permission to check out from the frantic, overwhelming pace of our lives. If you watch small children, you'll see that they race around madly and then collapse. They put out huge amounts of energy, and then they need to rest. We're like that, too, but we've forgotten about the downtime part.

We think we can be on the run endlessly and be fine.

Wrong.

The rhythm of exertion needs to be followed by rest. There is a time to run around and a time to plunge into oblivion. If we don't build the latter into our lives, we suffer. Either we become utterly exhausted or we sneak a plunge on the sly, sometimes while sitting in a car at a gas station. We grab time for ourselves by bingeing, and because we don't feel we're allowed the luxury of downtime, we end up hurting ourselves.

Downtime is not a luxury; it's a necessity. The food-free version could include reading, knitting, even watching soap operas. But if you are so tired that you can't imagine doing one more thing, what you should do is simple: nothing. Even for five minutes a day. If it's too outlandish to consider resting and either doing nothing or doing what you love, then it's time to take a second look at how you've constructed a life that includes everyone but you.

I also have some advice on what you can do when you find yourself knee-deep in the Binge Trance. Try to become aware of the part of you that is separate from the activity, the part that is witnessing what you are doing and saying, "Wow, I am sitting in my car at a gas station by myself surrounded by $50 worth of pizza and donuts — I wonder what's going on?" Pay attention to that voice at least as much as you are paying attention to the next bite. Be curious about what you are doing.

And at the very least, taste the food you are eating. My experience in bingeing — whether it's on two cookies or an entire cake — is that I am so caught up in getting the food in my mouth, I forget to taste it, to enjoy it. And as long as you are eating, you might as well enjoy it. If bingeing is the only time you give yourself permission to eat your favorite foods, why let the moment pass you by without noticing the crunch of those foods? Since binges are a way to give yourself something, let yourself receive it. The positive by-product of this awareness is that compulsion and mindfulness cannot coexist. Once you become aware of what you are doing, it's harder to continue with the same momentum.

What if you finish every last bite or drop? What do you say to yourself, how do you treat yourself? I have a three-word directive for coming off a binge: Be unspeakably kind. In the empty fullness left after bingeing, the "I can't believe you did this again, what's the matter with you, you are a failure now and forevermore" voices sense a place to step in. And when they do, they roar.

Don't let them. If they threaten to overtake you, imagine them, as a therapist friend of mine says, as teeny screeching mice the size of your thumbnail. Imagine putting them in a jar and covering it with a very strong lid. Since their squawking can't hurt you now, treat yourself as if you were doing your very best. Live as if you deserve to be here, regardless of what you have just eaten. And know that every time you remind yourself that you belong here, regardless of what you weigh, you are speaking the truth
At 12:50pm on November 13, 2009, Lynn said…
Thanks Rachel! I have to tell you that it really does feel wonderful to finally be getting back on track. How are you doing?
At 11:23pm on November 11, 2009, Hannah said…
Hi Rachel!
I have been MIA for quite a while, but feel better after writing my much overdue post. I'm so glad to see you've been having a great week. You continue to inspire me. I'm a binge-eater as well, and although I haven't been posting, I continue to read your posts for motivation and encouragement. I'm proud of you.
At 9:42am on November 10, 2009, EmilyRose said…
Hi Rachel!!
Thank you so much for the comment on my blog. I'm sorry it's been so long since i've been around! Just posted a NEW blog =) I'm excited to catch up on your posts and get back into the swing of BTL!
At 8:08am on November 10, 2009, Erica said…
Make lots of beans & freeze them it is so much better than canned. I'm so glad that I got back into doing this!
At 7:10pm on November 8, 2009, StEpHaNiE* said…
Hey! Thanks for checking up on me! My computer died so I didn't have any access to the internet for the past few weeks. I got a new computer now though so I'm back :) I did not have a good month of October - I ate too much and didn't exercise - I just couldn't stay on track. I'm motivated again though to get back in shape and get healthy again so here's hoping it sticks this time. How have you been doing? I'm going to catch up on your blog now :)
At 12:13pm on November 6, 2009, Tricia said…
Thanks, Rachel! I feel so good this week. I have 20 lbs I want to lose to get to exactly where I was before I got pregnant. Think I can do it by Christmas? I would be thrilled to lose 15 lbs by Christmas, actually. I think I'll set that goal.
I don't think I will read Intuitive Eating. It sounds like it almost messed you up. ha ha I love WW, and honestly I don't care if I have to think in POINTS the rest of my life. After I hit goal, I didn't really track on paper and I seemed to be okay. I had ups and downs, but I know I will always have to work to maintain my weight.
So how are you doing right now? How much are you running these days? Are you doing 30 Day Shred? I need to get back into that. I am just doing my walk/jog in the morning. I need to get some strength training back into my routine.
 
 

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